Shermanette McKenzie ([info]eosyn) wrote,
@ 2008-07-31 18:44:00
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Current mood:apathetic
Entry tags:life, literature, rant, spew, uteral woes!

sucks at virtual human interaction!
I promisseee to be more active, my god. I really do enjoy reading your journals, but I think the sheer lack of activity I've been doing all summer has incinerated the "comment" function in my brain. But I do have a new layout: [info]eosyn [info]eosyn [info]eosyn

I want to write a story, or draw a manga. I was always a decent writer and a mediocre artist, but I am a shit-awful storyteller. It probably has something to do with the fact that I never had any emotional investment in my stories, much like I have little emotional investment in life xD

I'm a bit detached and I wonder if it'll be a problem, but to be perfectly honest I like it. I've never been over-stressed or extremely emotional, but I'm not good at making close friends. I will probably never get married and own fifteen cats instead.

Umm in other news, my relatives and I talked a lot about homosexuality this summer and my parents will probably not disown me and definitely not execute me if I brought home a girlfriend. Although my mom is still pushing the pregnancy vs. adoption thing, but I don't think there's anything that I'd like less than spewing a bawling baby into the world THROUGH MY VAGINA :( Sorry uterus, but I'd rather you didn't exist.

In other other news, I finished the Nightrunner series by Lynn Flewelling. The first three books were amazing, but I thought the fourth one read a lot like fanfiction--albeit very well written, extremely fulfilling fanfiction--with its comparably large amount of MANSEX and comparably small amount of political intrigue. I'm still on a gay epic fantasy high, but it's slowly being crushed by my obligation to read Grapes of Wrath and other various, shorter, seemingly less-painful schoolbooks.

Also, two weeks ago I BABYSAT for the second time ever, I don't even know why because I really, really dislike children. I'm going to do it again tomorrow :(( Luckily I'm earning good cash. I didn't even entertain the notion that the lady would want me to babysit again seeing as I wasn't exactly stellar last time...but meh. I think to prevent further job inquiries I'll have to accidentally injure one of her children or make them ridiculously obese or something.


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[info]acidacidacid
2008-08-01 02:08 am UTC (link)
ohgod babysitting. i... dislike children also... but some of them seem to have a strange attraction to me... =__=; but i just want them to go away. I want to draw a manga toooo. But I suck at drawing comics because I... don't do it. And same thing about the storytelling part, ugh. I-I wish I was more detached-- I'm kind of the opposite right now? except in the summer, when my brain is melted from boredom.

grapes of wrath shouldn't be too bad. I read east of eden (by the same guy, right?) I thought it was good? xD; good luck though~

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[info]eosyn
2008-08-01 02:15 am UTC (link)
that...really sucks. You could carry them far away and run really quickly back so their squat little baby legs couldn't catch up.
I never draw people in action, whether it be eating or ROUNDHOUSE KICKING, so I'm scared of drawing a comic because I'm sure people do a lot of eating and kicking :|
But at least that means you relate with people more. I hope it doesn't stress you out too much though :(

I heard East of Eden was better than Grapes of Wrath, but I don't know myself. The book isn't too bad, but I've read 160 pages and they have done nothing more than finally START driving towards California. I don't know what they're going to do for the remaining 460 xD;

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[info]acidacidacid
2008-08-01 02:22 am UTC (link)
lolol squat little baby legs ew. it sounds so gross when you say it that way. Yeah, I can't draw people in action either. BOO. Haha I get stressed out pretty easily @A@ (in junior year, that will not be an asset. oh crap)

And wow, I guess John Steinbeck really likes california (east of eden also took place in california... partially). Just like so many indie songs today are about california. and... don't you live in california? SO MUCH CALIFORNIA /flail

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[info]eosyn
2008-08-01 02:50 am UTC (link)
i have this baby cousin who has the grossest squat baby legs ever. Like there's her plump leg, and it's like they just CUT OFF THE END AND ATTACHED A FOOT like there is no transition between her calf and foot :(

omg I'm super scared for junior year :O but when we get through it our lives will be better, right? At least because we never have to do it again. Good luck!

I do live in California; it's quite a dandy place to be but then I've never lived anywhere else. The characters in Grapes of Wrath are always waxing poetic about how there are oranges and grapes EVERYWHERE, like, spewing out of people's pores because they are SO ABUNDANT. omg. stfu.

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[info]missteacakes
2008-08-01 04:32 pm UTC (link)
I tried drawing manga a couple of times. Then I realized that I really hate doing the repetitive frame-by-frame stuff. It gets really tedious. In the end, I write and illustrate the stories--you'll generally find that the more you write the better it gets. A few years later you'll look back and say, "Damn, I used to suck at this!"

At your age, it's okay to be detached. I'm still detached, and I'm nineteen. Though I'm sorry to say that it's illegal to have more than four in most states.

And the thing about pregnancy vs adoption for me is that, while I would like a kid and would want it to be mine, I wouldn't want to go through the hassle of pregnancy. In the end, who knows...

Ugh. Grapes of Wrath. I think the worst we had to do in school was watch the movie, and I fell asleep. But you read schoolbooks over the summer? Still, don't let it crush you too badly.

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[info]eosyn
2008-08-01 05:28 pm UTC (link)
Haha yes I used to draw manga and write stories all the time back in elementary/middle school. I kind of miss the freedom I had back then because I never realized how bad it was, so I never stopped trying xD

I see all my friends with their RELATIONSHIP DRAMA and I wonder why I've never had to deal with that. And I actually am not really that big a fan of animals anyway because they shed everywhere :(

Yeah she tells me that I'll change my mind when I'm 20, but I don't know. Pregnancy is not a very attractive process for me, and I feel like the kid would be mine no matter whose womb it multiplied cells in. But we'll see.

It's required summer reading :( I should've started early but I got distracted by other books.

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[info]missteacakes
2008-08-01 07:49 pm UTC (link)
You just have to keep ignoring how bad it is; it gets better without you noticing.

I used to get put in the middle of the DRAMA, which isn't fair, since I've never really been a part of it.

Well, as long as you don't get distracted by fanfiction, like me. That's the worst.

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